i had the weirdest dream ever i swear.
things were good-bad-worst.
i'm still very disturbed about it.

and, i think im not in a good mood imma gonna rant the shit outta here.
those kpo and extra one please go away okay.

Right now, i feel exactly exactly when that incident started and like i dont understand why there was a need to hide, at all. It only makes me feel like shit, like now. And sometimes i'm still very confused. can you please enlighten me? like as much as i worry, i want to worry, the truth is, i can never do anything to help, at all. okay, enough of that matter. i felt peaceful today, which was good, i just despise the moments when i just wake up. the dilemna i face, the doubts, the first ever doubt that ever surfaces when i wake. i know the answer, i knew it, long ago, but i always hoped maybe things would be different just for that god damn day. maybe victory tastes sweet? but nah, it doesn't all the time. i should've seriously not fought for it in the first place. you're one fucking regret i have. fullstop. and then i come to think of it, like what she said, maybe its partly my fault? yes but i seriously think there's something wrong with you. wtf is wrong with me? why am i being sucha fucking coward? "dont run with scissors if you don't wanna get hurt". enough of that (i dont know what to fill in either). Moving on. Okay, in the first place if you were more sensitive of the situation i'm in and stop being ignorant, things wont be like this. you're seriously pampered and i seriously dont know what to do with you, so i concluded some time back, that i should care less and don't bother as much. im wasting my energy, breath, everything. ok, my day's ending so fucked up like this. fucking hate it. 3 matters at one go, the feelings not nice ok.

thanks a lot, you just spoilt my night and i'm 5 mins away from starting a new day, you spoilt it too.